Resolutions

It's that time again where the new year rolls around where people party their face off, ruin their liver by drowning themselves in alcohol, and who can forget about those lovely new years resolutions people make to improve themselves over the year. I remember vaguely of much younger self in high school making resolutions consisting along the lines of convincing myself that I MUST have a boyfriend by the end of the year. Once I look back at my previous blogs and read how boy crazy I was [okay well I still am but it's NOT bad] it got me thinking how much better I could have been if I didn't have silly resolutions that involved boys. Sitting on my bed in Los Angeles, I was quite bored out of my mind, and I figured that I haven't blogged in a while so I should blog and hopefully something good will come out of it? Maybe? Meh? Let's begin with the resolutions:

01. LOSE WEIGHT [I know this must be one of the main resolutions on people's list, I know it's always on mine, but f'real this time, I NEED to lose weight, especially since I wanna look bangable for my 21st birthday :D plus I need to do it for my health as well]

02. GAIN SELF-CONFIDENCE [I lack self-confidence. Especially during class discussions, I wanna talk, I just lack the confidence to talk. I want to be better at talking in front of people]

03. WORK ON PUBLIC SPEAKING [I must get over my fear of public speaking! It's so frustrating! ... I just don't like feeling stupid ...]

04. IMPROVE GPA [My GPA has been improving, but I really want to get it higher so that I can have more options for grad school]

05. DISCOVER A NEW HOBBY [All I really do is eat, sleep, study, watch tv, play games, you know, all the stuff anti-social people do ... I want to be able to find something else to do]

06. FIND A JOB [I desperately need a job!]

07. MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN A PERSON'S LIFE [I've always wanted to make a difference in a person's life]

08. ATTEND 2010 NEW YORK M.U.N. CONFERENCE [I REALLY want to go but currently lack the funding to go =/ ]

09. DON'T THINK ABOUT BOYS SO MUCH [they're not THAT important at this point of my life]

10. DISCOVER MYSELF [I feel like I've lost myself lately in the last two years ... thus I want to rediscover myself]

I have decided that I am putting a big, sturdy wall up. I don't really want to be attached to anyone at the moment, relationship wise. I know I'm going to be missing out on a lot of stuff ... but I want to be able to support myself in the future without any one else helping me. But I'm talking about boys. I don't want a boy, I want a man :]

Other than that, Happy New Years everyone!