One More

Literally one more month from now and I'll be moving to Riverside. One month until I move into my new apartment with Carlos and Shawn. Just one more month of working at Robeks, dealing with stupid people, making freaking smoothies, and dealing with all their crap. One more month until I get to fall asleep into the arms of my love and not have to worry about anything but school and living the "college" life. One more is so little, yet so far away. I'm counting down the days until I get to move out of Hawthorne and back to Riverside. A year ago I thought I would end up missing the big city, I thought I would get homesick and miss everyone. This summer has made me realize that I am tired of the big city. Riverside may be in the middle of nowhere and is practically desert, but it's a nice place away from home. There's nothing bothering you in Riverside. It's just you. I love it over there. I have so much freedom. I'm free to do whatever I want. It seems like there's so much stress back at home. It's as if every time I come home, I'm obligated to do something I don't want to do. I know that once I come home to visit once I move to Riverside, I would have to somehow find time to spend it with my family and friends [ well with whatever friends I have left in Hawthorne ] Gahhh I'm so tired right now ... It's almost 3am and I can't sleep ... damn brother and his damn games ... grrr!

This summer has been a difficult summer. Everyone has changed ... even me ... I have become anti-social and surprisingly, I'm okay with that. I just need some time to myself where I can relax and plan my life out. I just recently lost my best friend ... yes, I feel bad ... but I just didn't find it to be fair that she gave me an ultimatum ... I didn't deserve one ... but w/e ...

Family is the main thing in my life during the summer. I rarely see them so I rather spend time with them more than with anyone else.

Work stinks. People are stupid.

Carlos is awesome. Even though we've had many arguments throughout this summer, I dont know how, but he manages to stick by my side. Gosh, I love that boy =]

Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ... I'm tired. Peace!