Disappointment.

Disappointment [dis-uh-point-muhnt]: to fail to fulfill the expectations or wishes of

I am terrified of disappointment. I hate seeing the look of disappointment on someone's face when I'd let them down. This quarter has been so busy for me. I'm hardly home, I'm usually on campus getting some work done. I took a week off last week since it was my "chill" week but now we're onto week seven ... no more ditching from now on ... ditching would be one of the most stupidest things I can do right now. MUN is taking up my time as well, on Wednesdays and Thursdays, I'm usually at school til around 9ish or whenever meetings end due to our preparation for the upcoming conference in New York. I met up with my partner today to work on our position paper ... man oh man ... we're so lost and befuddled with what's going on. We were shooting our ideas at each other and it helped clear our mind a bit. But once I got home and sat in front of my laptop ... I just stared at it ... my bed is covered with my textbooks ... they're opened ... but I can't seem to focus ... ugh ... I need to keep reminding myself to keep pulling through ... and that everything ... all this hard work ... this stress ... will ALL be worth it at the end ... I just need to keep thinking that ...