... from crying for 3 hours. Why did I cry you may ask? Well, it turns out that my loans isn't going to get processed because I don't have a cosigner. My mom's "boyfriend" was suppose to cosign but he's stuck in Vietnam for I don't know what reasons. I don't have anyone else to cosign because everyone I know has poor credit. My dad can't cosign for me because he's not a citizen, not to mention no credit. I can't cosign because I don't work and I don't have money flowing in. Since I don't have money for practically anything, there's a possibility I might end up getting kicked out of UCR for not tuition money and I might get kicked out of my apartment for no rent money and overall kicked out of everything thus turning me into the failure I didn't want to become.
I hate all the stupid decisions I made throughout my life. I hate being stuck in this situation feeling so vulnerable and helpless. I hate crying my eyes off. I hate being distracted with this shit where I can't finish a simple 3 pg. essay. I hate how everything is going.
I have no friends to go back home to. I only have a few friends I open up to. Best friends do not exist, maybe in teddy bears, but not in real life. There is no such thing.
I hate my life. I wish I could fall asleep forever and not wake up.
I'm growing weaker every day.
Monday, January 26, 2009
My Eyes Hurt ...
Posted by SP at 1:29 AM
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2 comments:
Awww.. *hugs* I hope you're okay now. Welcome to blogger world btw! Blogger world is so expensive for it will enable you to buy things! hahah! :)
The CCO is inside Saks 5th! Oh girl, you will love it there! They have new things right now such as starflash eyeshadows, fafi, heatherette, and red she said palettes :D
thanks =] things are much better since this blog, I will make an attempt to find the CCO and I have noticed blogging is getting a bit pricey in which it is encouraging me to get a job =]
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