Just a Few More ...

Summer has not turned out how I expected it to be. Before summer break started, I had plans spending the summer with more people and hopefully getting to bond with people from high school. Unfortunately for me, I did not have that luxury. Towards the beginning of summer, I was told that my financial aid would not be continued for my 2nd year at UCR. I was devastated when I found out and I was freaking out a bit. To cope with the situation I decided to ask for more hours at work. I was working at Robeks again since I knew they would be lenient with the hours and I was sure they would end up giving me as many hours as I asked for. I was working so much that I didn't have time for anyone. Not for me, not for my best friend [at that time], not my boyfriend, and most importantly my family. My "best-friend" was mad that I was not able to spend time with her so she decided to give me an ultimatum. This hurt me. For her to give me an ultimatum when I didn't deserve it. I was working trying to get my life started, least she can do is understand and not complain. It was still the beginning of summer and she was still freaking out about spending time together. All of the complaining and nagging just made me sick of it. I know it made me a bad friend once I just didn't want to hang out anymore. Hookah nights were getting old. It seemed like every time we would go out, I had to spend some amount of money. I was tired of it. I didn't want any of it. I decided to cut myself off from the world. That way I would try to balance out my life. My [ex] best friend got really hurt about it [i wouldnt blame her] but at the moment, I didn't really care. She can say all she can about how I'm like her ex or whatever, but I have never been so relieved. [ I know, it sounds messed up] I like not having to worry about making time for HER. I swear, it seemed like everything was about her. WHATEVER.

Anyways, moving on. Working at Robeks again was a different experience than last summer. Different rules and different people. I have definitely grew close with my co-workers for they were basically my second family. I also met some new people around the area as well =] Yes there were times were I was so tired of working but I could not wait to leave but once my time was over, I was a bit sad. It would be ages before I get to see all these people. I have grown close to them and I was sad to leave all the trainees. Plus, I'm gonna miss all my discounts =/

I loved being able to spend time with my family. I mean when my family from up North came down, I was so freaking excited. I asked for the entire weekend off just to spend it with them! Family is most definitely number one! =] It was awesome seeing my baby nephew! He's growing up so fast! Spending time with my brothers is priceless as well. I mean yes we argue and whatnot but I'm all they have so I gotta cherish all the time I have with them until I move back to UCR.

My relationship with Carlos has been rocky throughout this summer but everything will be okay tomorrow. Tomorrow is when I will get to be in his arms without any limits =]

Tomorrow will be the day when I move back to Riverside and I cannot wait. Hawthorne is my home but Riverside is my little slice of paradise <3